clouding my judgement. i get vexed, frustrated, upset very easily.
every little thing is able to tip me off my balance and start getting upset over the smallest things.
family, fow, friends. Nothing is going smoothly at the moment.
And as the week progresses, I find more and more things.
that upset me. i know your trying really really hard to cheer me up.
and i know its not easy. and im sorry for feeling like that everyday.
i try to perk up, and the next day something else will happen.
a lot of things i do, i dont like myself for doing it.
but its a duty.
because as humans we all have many roles.
as children, as siblings, as seniors, or juniors,
as parents, as friends, as spouses.
many roles. and some of them may be conflicting.
you do things to please a group and u sacrifice another group.
i feel that im sacrificing my friends.
i hate myself for that.
but i havent found a way to get around it.
as much as i love my friends,
family always has to come first.
